I think most of us would answer “yes” to the above question. I personally feel tired, frustrated, and emotionally drained most days. I want things done when I want them done and how I want them done, anything that deviates from this causes me stress and exhausts me. Between family, work, ministry, and every other area in my life, I put a lot of stress upon myself. Needless to say, I am routine driven; yes, controlling as well, but that’s a whole other issue. When I feel out of control, I tend to “shut down”, physically and mentally; I’m of no good to anyone. My coping mechanism is sleep; which of course verifies the statement “of no good to anyone”. Feeling this way affects every aspect of my life.

How is it that I am quick to encourage others to rely on God, but I don’t heed my own advice?  Good question, I ask myself this quite frequently.  I have come to the realization, that I have my priorities mixed up. I need to practice what I preach; I am personally relying on things of this world instead of God.  Only God can meet my every need and here I am relying on “my” (self) (ex. Routine), when I should be focusing on calling on God. “Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.” (Jeremiah 33:3) I need to focus on God, rest on His understanding. “Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you”. (1 Peter 5:7) I think facing personal disappointments has taught us to depend on ourselves when we should be depending on God. God craves our attention, we need to cry out to Him for help and trust Him to work all things for our good. “Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous be shaken.” (Psalm 55:22) He understands and knows our needs before we voice them to Him.  He didn’t say it was going to be easy; He just wants us to know He is with us every step of the way, if we just put Him first. He is a constant, rely on Him, things change but God does not. “Jesus is the same yesterday and today and forever.” (Hebrews 13:8)

What will I have to show for my life when I stand before Jesus?  This is such an important question to ask yourself; it will put your priorities into perspective. I can assure you, the routine in my life will not matter one bit, however, my relationship with God will. Just a few tips to build your relationship with God: Pray, Read God’s Word, Meditate/Be Still/Have Quiet Time with God, Fellowship with God’s people, and Attend Church Regularly.

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” Matthew 11:28

“God is trustworthy, faithful, and reliable.” 1 Thessalonians 5:24

“Look to the Lord and his strength; seek his face always.” 1 Chronicles 16:11

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.” Proverbs 3:5

Seek God! Trust in Him! He is faithful!

Kristi Hawthorne

Kristi Hawthorne

Lamentations 3:22-23 "The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; His mercies never come to an end; They are new every morning; Great is Your faithfulness."