It has been a journey within a journey for my family and me. For the past two months or so, my husband, Chance, and I had been praying and planning about our move back to Texas.

We actually just arrived back in the Lonestar state last week, on Wednesday evening, and I cannot even begin to tell you how hard yet rewarding the trip itself and all the days in between up until now was for us. Having two little ones and moving them cross country is tough, but we did it. And I sure as heck know that we could not have done it without the abundance of God’s grace, patience, forgiveness and most importantly, strength and comfort.

Let me just state the obvious for a minute. Leaving family is NEVER easy. Did you catch that? LEAVING FAMILY IS NEVER EASY. With that said, I want to encourage any of you who may be in this position to press on!

One thing I learned during this move within all the planning, confusion, chaos, stress and yes, even pain is that GOD IS STILL GOD. I read recently that we should, “Never interpret God as changing with our changes. He never does; there is no variableness in Him.” (Oswald Chambers) Can I get an amen? Because how many of us quickly turn to God and wave that judgmental index finger of ours scolding Him for not being consistent in our lives?

When in reality it is not Him at all missing the mark but US! (Come on now, let’s not fool ourselves.) Especially when there is pain or suffering in our lives we rarely give credit to the enemy and go straight to our Father blaming Him and asking Him why. Job 2:7-10 (NKJV) reads, “So Satan went out from the presence of the Lord and struck Job with painful boils from the sole of his foot to the crown of his head. And he took for himself a potsherd with which to scrape himself while he sat in the midst of the ashes.Then his wife said to him, “Do you still hold fast to your integrity? Curse God and die!”But he said to her, “You speak as one of the foolish women speaks. Shall we indeed accept good from God, and shall we not accept adversity?” In all this Job did not sin with his lips.” WOW. Just WOW.

Even though Job was facing constant pain, suffering and even the pressures of cursing God and dying, he did not waver. Job did not lose sight of the bigger picture. He not only knew the reality of his circumstance but accepted it completely. He makes it clear that if we are able to accept good from God then we must also be willing to accept the bad that comes from the enemy.

There cannot be good without bad and there could be no dark if there was no light to begin with. Right or right? Haha. My point is, we must not live this life thinking that when we receive something good in it, we are, for whatever reason exempt from also experiencing a form of evil. Whether that may be hurt, suffering, pain, heartache, hardships, fatigue, lack of finances, loss of a job, loved one or anything else that the enemy has used against you in your own life.

Let’s go back to what Jesus did for us on the cross shall we? He literally gave His life to save ours. He faced what must have felt like an infinite amount of pain in exchange for but a moment that would change our very lives FOREVER. He went through the good, the bad, the ugly and everything in between for me. For you. And for those who want nothing to do with Him. He accepted the hurt He had to go through because there was joy at the end of it all.

God doesn’t allow us to suffer because He enjoys it, but because it is necessary for our lives in that moment. Take note and constantly remind yourself that God loves us enough to not leave us in our weak and pitiful state of mind. He does what He does to strengthen us. He prunes and chastens us so that we may be what? Scarred and battered? NO!! He does those things that we may be “perfect and complete lacking nothing.” (James 1:4 NKJV)

So yes, leaving my family hurt. Knowing my parents and brothers would no longer be able to see our boys everyday broke my heart. But that was not and still isn’t the end of the story. It is simply just a chapter in this book of life that God is currently writing. I once heard a pastor say something that I have clung to constantly and which penetrated my heart in an instant. He said, “Sometimes our obedience to the ways of God comes with a cost to others that we care for.” –Pastor Aaron Mcrae (Hillside Rancho). When I first heard that I instantly realized that I, we can no longer be afraid to obey what God has asked of us because we feel bad for what it may do to others. As harsh as that sounds, it is true. If we live our lives in fear of letting people down, we are not living at all. We are simply just breathing to make people happy despite of what it may cost us.

Each of you, including myself have been given this life to not please others but to please the very one who gave it to us in the first place. GOD. Period. Exclamation point. The end. There is no if’s and’s or but’s about it. Yes, it will be hard, and some days will feel even harder than the ones before. But don’t give up. Don’t lose sight.

And last but definitely not least, never forget the one who gave your heart it’s beating to begin with. Because this life means nothing if it is not a life striving to please our Creator. When you think you cannot go on any more, please be reminded that when Christ was on the cross enduring the excruciating pain throughout His whole body, He was still thinking of YOU.

So, who are we to not do the same today? We are in no way greater or more privileged than Jesus was. When pain hits you in the face and you begin to think what you can do so you no longer feel it, think of the cross and the red streams flowing down it all while praising God for choosing His very own Son to go through that and lovingly sparing you and me. Because what we may experience here on earth is NOTHING compared to what Jesus experienced on Calvary.

-Beautifully ♡ Unfinished-

  Bianca Williams