Grace is awesome. Isn’t it? I’ve been thinking about grace a lot lately. I’m so very thankful for it. Especially this weekend.
Yesterday, I sat down at my kitchen table and read a sappy blog about being a mother and I bawled my eyes out. Lately, I have found myself so overfilled with various emotions that they spill out so easily and without much sloshing. The slightest thing and I’m a wreck. Either overwhelmed with sadness or shook with anger. It’s been quite disconcerting, as I just don’t know what has been going on with me.
I’ve asked God over and over, “Lord, what’s going on in me?” I have desperately been wanting to be past this and have the solution in hand so I can get myself back under control. For days, I’ve been a mess and waiting for that answer.
In the moment that I sat in tears after reading this blog, I repeated my prayer to God for an answer. Like a lightning bolt of information into my mind, God told me precisely what was wrong and it was not at all what I had expected.
My soul was grieved because I wasn’t doing what God had asked of me. BOOM. Not only a surprise but a slap in the face because I knew that it was true. I dropped my head to the table and just sat there in disbelief. Was I surprised by the answer? Kind of but not really. I didn’t make the connection, but I knew I was disobeying God.
I was angry at myself and remorseful that I’d done this to God. Have you ever been there? Have you dismissed something that God was clearly leading you to do?
Grace is lovely in that it affords us, through Christ Jesus, the opportunity to make it right and live in peace. I repented and asked forgiveness and for the strength to move forward in this thing. I dedicated myself to the plan. I am now consumed by peace.
“But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.” 2 Corinthians 12:9.
It is my weakness in this thing that shows His strength. It is why I must move forward. He knew it would require grace as it is my weakness! He’s isn’t surprised! He knew that I would need that grace, which is sufficient for me, to carry on this path He’s called me. My friend, that grace is sufficient for you too, in whatever steps God has laid before you as well. Will you walk with me?