Can you hear it rippling through the air? Is the tingling on your skin getting your attention?
I don’t know about you, but lately the tension can be cut with a knife. The stress is running up and down my skin and bringing a sensation that stings. Turn on the news and there it is…conflict….situations that are unjust…..children experiencing illnesses……dishonesty among government…..and it goes on and on. Work seems to be more demanding with expectations that are beyond attainable. Differences of outlooks can even creep into a moment of distress.
Do I run away from it? Do I face it head on? Do I become part of the tension adding on to it? Do I help to make life better by bringing a positive lookout? Do I bring it before God and ask Him for direction and peace? I would love to say I go right to God, my father, and ask him to show me, bring peace, and go into action. There are times my fist goes up. I flex my arm! I say the negative. I even take some moments personal that really aren’t about me.
It reminds of Jacob who took his brother’s birthright and caused so much conflict for everyone around him and actually himself. Jacob is dishonest and unjust. He ran away from it. He sent others ahead of him to keep himself safe. He became a part of the tension. He thought only of himself. Then he is left alone after sending all that was a part of his life and his left possessions ahead. He puts his fist up to the God of his fathers.
Genesis 32:22-30 ESV “The same night he arose and took his two wives, his two female servants, and his eleven children, and crossed the ford of the Jabbock. He took them and sent them across the stream and everything else that he had. And Jacob was left alone. And a man wrestled with him until the breaking of day. When the man saw that he did not prevail against Jacob, he touched his hip socket, and Jacob’s hip was put out of joint as he wrestled with him. Then he said, “Let me go, for the day has broken.” But Jacob said, “I will not let you go unless you bless me.” And he said to him, “What is your name? And he said, “Jacob.” Then he said, “You name shall no longer be called Jacob, but Israel, for your have striven with God and with men, and have prevailed.” Then Jacob asked him, “Please tell me your name.” But he said, “Why is it that you my name?” And there he blessed him. So Jacob called the name of the place Peniel.” saying, “For I have seen God face to face, and yet my life has been delivered.”
Jacob wrestles with God or some say an angel, never the less, he wrestles. That’s how it seems with tension, frustration, stress…. wrestling.
There have been times in my life where I have wrestled with God. Why God?…. When God?……Where are you God?….. And then the fist comes down. The palms go up. Ok, God I know you are here. I surrender…My eyes open. My ears listen. A moment in my journey with God, I just begged for my son’s soul. Take away the bad influences. Then God said….”Those influences are broken and take my son out of their lives. You are broken just as much as he is, they are.” My prayers changed…. I asked God like Jacob to spare my life, my sin, I quit wrestling and asked for the blessing of forgiveness and grace. My son’s soul was saved and my prayers for others changed. Blessing came. I will never forget what Christ did for him or me. Christ became my son’s God. The God of Abraham became Jacob’s God, the God of Israel. When you feel like you are wrestling with God. Remember He is the almighty and His plan is better than anything we could ever orchestrate. Make Him your God! The mighty God of (your name)! Don’t run from Him. Run to Him!