I remember sinking to my knees praying to God to break/tame me. “Lord, I want to be broken”, I screamed. “Break me, Mould me, Shapen me”, I wept. I read numerous books on ‘Brokenness’ so knew all the theories and attended a short course on Brokenness.
Do you all remember Shakespeare’s play ‘The taming of the shrew?’. In summary, Kate, a strong-willed young woman, against all odds, was tamed by her husband, Petruchio. I was to be tamed but not in ways I envisaged.
A tormentor was sent to break me. He was relentless and brutal. My husband marvelled that I did not walk out of the situation, which was usually my style. I also didn’t understand why I went back for more chastisement. “Lord, why?”, became my new prayer. “Take this torment away from me”. Little did I know that to be broken, I had to pass various tests (to pass a driving test in the UK, you undergo both the theory and practical). I stayed the course, was finally freed from my tormentor then received promotion from the Lord.
BE SURE before you kneel in prayer. Paul prayed to visit Rome (Romans 1:10-11). He eventually did but in chains (Acts 28:16). If you ask the Lord for patience, you may be tested with the most irritable person on earth. If you ask to be more generous, don’t be surprised if all the beggars in town camp outside your door. If you ask for help to deal with your anger, you will be put in situations where this will be tested.
Hebrews 12:11 No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it. God bless.