I woke on Tuesday, thinking surely it is Friday. Last week was similar, every day striving toward’s its end and the schedule and its sameness, I found myself in a state of apathy, oddly caring just enough about my obligations that I sensed a dull cloud of worry, a steady beating anxiety, waiting for the storm to continue its critical relenting.
My faith like a worn out umbrella the wind might get underneath and sweep away, I’d be left to find strength somehow to make it through the torrential rain. Life’s unexpected hailstorm pelting me with hard hits until I either stand knowing it soon would pass or I run for shelter, defeated and beaten.
Then, I settled in and hunkered down and I decided to approach the storm, accept that it had come through like a thief and ransacked my normal day to day; but, that it was done now, the sun was shining through and Wednesday is Wednesday and I have grace sufficient for this day. I decided as I met the day with coffee in the still dark kitchen, I have grace sufficient for this day.
I read of Paul’s time in Athens, how he continued to speak convincingly of His God and how he was called a “babbler” by the scholarly and religious. I connected with him when he woke from a dream, a vision. See, I’m a vivid dreamer and I don’t take lightly my dreams, I consider them prompts, lessons, warnings. I realized I had more than sufficiency with God, so very much more.
And the Lord said to Paul one night in a vision, “Do not be afraid, but go on speaking and do not be silent, for I am with you, and no one will attack you to harm you, for I have many in this city who are my people.” And he stayed a year and six months, teaching the word of God among them. Acts 18: 9-11 ESV
Have you found yourself in a storm of ridicule or rejection causing you to question continuing on? Has there a been a time you questioned your communication with others? Have you thought perhaps, I’ve said too much or not enough? Have you offered up wisdom and direction only to be met by the silent avoidance or even abandonment?
May we like Paul, trust our God in His design of us as speakers of His grace. May we know that not only do we have grace sufficient for the day, we have a mighty God, a God who is over all, a God who replenishes us through rest, trust and His word. We have a “mighty grace”, a grace that equips us, bids us not stay silent.
Grace, mightily sufficient.
Mightier than the thunders of many waters,
mightier than the waves of the sea,
the Lord on high is mighty! Psalm 93:4 ESV