I could NOT sleep that night. I tossed and turned, unable to get comfortable. Around 4:30 I made my way downstairs to the couch. I finally fell asleep when at about 5:45 I was awakened by a faint, but audible “pop.”
My water broke. It was go time. I called the doctor. He said “Have a light breakfast and I’ll see you at the hospital.”
“Light breakfast… so like a bagel?”
“A couple of eggs?”
“No! Just have a glass of milk.”
“Oookaay. See you soon!” I grabbed some milk, knowing that would be the last thing I would ingest for the long day ahead. My husband and I nervously headed for the hospital. My labor was easier than I had prepared for but by the time I met my baby boy 14 hours and a few ice chips later… I had never known physical thirst like that before.
I reach out my hands to You.
All that I am aches and yearns for You, like a dry land thirsting for rain. – Psalm 143:6 (The Voice)
I know this feeling David was experiencing. It’s on days when I am at the very end of me. I know that I need a miracle from God to rain down on my situation.
You may remember a time when you were that parched, but most days, I don’t even know I’m thirsty until I take a drink.
Sometimes, it’s just one of those busy days where I’ve had a cup of coffee in the morning and didn’t sit down again until dinner. I take a quick swig of water. It tastes sweeter than you’d think a flavorless drink would and fills a need I didn’t know I had.
It’s the every, ordinary day when I don’t allow myself time to check in with my soul. If I do, I know how my soul feels.
It thirsts for You, God.
If I’m not too busy to notice, my soul often aches and yearns for Jesus. His voice and his presence.
I catch a glimpse of his Word in an email or post on my newsfeed.
You, Lord, keep my lamp burning;
my God turns my darkness into light. – Psalm 18:28
The words are sweeter than you’d imagine something you’ve read before would be. And I realize that I have been lost in my own little world. I am in need of his guidance in every aspect of my life. Something deep within me knows that I am in desperate need of a savior. And at the same time, I have already been rescued.
God, there is a deep longing within me that I continue to try to fill with things that make me happy momentarily. I know now that what I need is you: Your unfailing love for me, your gentle correction, and push in the right direction. Your comfort and friendship. Your beauty and artistry, your power and wisdom. Your forgiveness. My soul thirsts deep down, like never before, for you.