It’s an exciting and anxious feeling when God calls you to do something that is totally out of your element. Take me for example, I am not a writer, but when He put this desire in my heart and this opportunity in front of me, I knew I had to take that leap. Although I felt like I couldn’t possibly do it, I just kept reassuring myself that He will lead me every step of the way. I mean come on, if He put this desire in me then there is no way He will let me fall right? It’s plainly states it in the bible (Philippians 1:6) so I just have to be confident. Yup, I so got this, I was even walking around singing with such joy and conviction “You never going to let me down’” like it was my own motto or cheer chant. But as the time went by and I had no clue as to what I’d wanted to write or say that chant got a little less loud. Don’t get me wrong, I had all these ideas, but none felt right, and I was really struggling. Doubt and fear started creeping in and defeat was right around the corner. So, I did what most of us do at times like these. I asked God why He wasn’t helping me out here, like just give me something, a clue or a sign, but what I got in return was nothing but silence.
I like to think that God has a sense of humor and talks to each of us in His own unique way, because He created us all differently. He can use anything to communicate to us whether it be something we read or even something we heard somebody say plenty of times, I’m telling you, God will get His point across and He does it so plain and simple. I’m pretty sure the phrase “Galatians three-threeing it” is something you might be unfamiliar with. This is something I heard my papa say plenty times and simply it means (my interpretation): “You started out in sync with His spirit, but now you’re trusting in your own human ability”. So, imagine my surprise when I’ driving home from work and God finally responses with “Why are you Galatians three-threeing it” via the voice of my papa. Uh-oh. Then of course He reminds me before I can start telling Him that I’m not doing that.
You see He reminded me off the times I “prayed” about what to write, which simply was me saying “God what can I write” and not “God what do YOU want me to write”. I replaced Him with me and that’s why nothing felt right because I was depending on my ability to do this without Him. He put this desire in my heart and here I was leaving Him out of it. Imagine that, leaving God out of his own plan and easily forgetting it was Him who began a good work. We’ve all been there, but isn’t it wonderful to have a loving and gracious God who puts us back on His path with just a bit of correction.
Even though it wasn’t the response I was expecting, it was the response and honestly the reminder I needed. God puts His desires in our hearts to benefit His kingdom not ours. He has the masterplan. He created the heavens and the earth. How foolish I am to think that I can do anything without Him?
Are you so foolish? Having begun in the Spirit, are you now being made perfect by the flesh? Galatians 3:3 NKJV