Today was one of those days. You know the kind…
The kind of day where everything I said was wrong. The kind of day that felt like it would never end. The kind of day that made me feel so utterly worthless and hopeless because I felt like a fool in front of everyone I came into contact with…everything seemed to go wrong.
Yep, one of those.
In my mind, it was a train wreck. And it should’ve been a good day. I’m in a season right now where I have a lot of new things going on. It’s a new year, so I have new goals for myself, new projects I’m working on, new people I’m trying to connect with, so it should be going well, right?
Except here’s the problem…today was all, “me, me, me”. I had to get stuff done for a new project I’m helping with. I had to do things MY way. I got easily frustrated because things weren’t how I would do it. I, I, I…me, me, me.
Ugh, the odor of self-importance and ego in that previous paragraph is stomach-turning, and I’m embarrassed by how I was acting.
Have you been there before, my friend? Stuck in one of those never-ending hamster wheels of self-interest and narcissism? It’s hard not to be spinning that wheel in 2018…we live in a society where image is king, entitlement reigns supreme, and we potentially treat ourselves like the princes and princesses we think we are.
If only we could live like the true King who reigns supreme.
Matthew 16:24-25 states, “Then Jesus said to his disciples, ‘If any of you wants to be my follower, you must give up your own way, take up your cross, and follow me. If you try to hang on to your life, you will lose it. But if you give up your life for my sake, you will save it’”(NLT).
Wait, what? Jesus wants us to do what? How am I supposed to give up my life and save it at the same time?
Jesus was the best example of denying Himself and serving others. How easily we can forget that He paid the ultimate sacrifice and gave us the best gift anyone could ever ask for: true love. 1 John 3:16 states, “This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers and sisters” (NIV).
These two verses have been vying for my attention while in the midst of my selfish ramblings and clouded perceptions. It’s not about me. At all. Ever.
It’s all about Him: The One who gave up His life so I could have mine, and all He is asking me to do is to follow Him, and think of others before myself. How hard is that, truly?
Our world is hurting right now, from so many different, harsh factors, and we can take so many small steps to make it just a little bit better. So here is my small step I will begin to take (and I want you to hold me accountable!): I will do one act of service every day for someone else. It may be letting my husband sleep a little longer in the morning, or leaving a small surprise for a coworker to brighten their day, or I try to help someone who is hurting and meet them wherever they need me to at that moment…or it may be I hold back my tongue before offering an opinion, piece of advice, or suggestion because it may not be warranted. Whatever the case may be, I am striving toward taking the focus off of me, and placing it on someone else. I’m going to deny me, serve others, and glorify Jesus.
Will I screw up? Absolutely. Will I make mistakes? Of course. Will I insert my foot into my mouth when I don’t mean to and say things that communicate the wrong message? It’s inevitable.
But He knows this already. He knows that we will all screw up, make mistakes, and say the wrong things. He knows this, and we know and can trust that He will love us anyway. We just have to think of ourselves less, and think of Him and others more.
Let’s all take small steps today to make someone’s day a little brighter, and the world a little more beautiful, just like God intended.