Abiding in Him
For the last three years, I’ve chosen a word of the year. Brave. Revive. Abide. Each word has truly encompassed my year in ways I never imagined. 2017 was no different.
Abide: to continue; remain; stay; endure; reside
(dictionary.com; Webster’s dictionary)
“He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will abide in the shadow of the Almighty.”
Psalms 91:1 ESV
Psalm 91:1 was the verse I had last December/January as my verse for the year. It was the verse where the word abide just stick out to me. I wanted to abide so closely to Him. But what I didn’t realize was what it would take for me to abide.
Look closely at that verse. It talks about abiding in His shadow. To be in someone’s shadow, you have to be super close to them. You can’t be in a shadow far away. And I don’t know about you, but I’m closer to God when times are tough. In the good times, I let my relationship slide. I don’t pray as hard. I don’t dig into the Word as deep. But when times are tough, we are super close! I don’t miss my Bible study. I cry out to Him. I seek Him fervently.
So in order for me to abide, I’ve had to walk through some tough times. 2017 was a challenge. The year started off with hurt and disappointment and it seemed to loom most of the year. Frustration and confusion seemed to be at every turn. Loss took place as a spiritual mentor passed away and then my grandpa passed away. New seasons were entered. Tears flowed and questions weren’t being answered.
I found myself asking why God? This isn’t what I prayed for or expected. This isn’t how I thought you’d do this! This isn’t how I expected this year to go!
And while I don’t have all the answers or understand all I’ve walked through this year, I do know I’ve grown closer to Him than ever. I’m so hungry to crack open my Bible. On the days when I can’t sit down with my physical Bible, I try to at least get some scriptures from Youversion. I can’t pass it up. I miss it when I don’t get it.
I don’t know what 2018 holds. But I do hope that I will be found abiding in His shadow, during not just the bad times but the good times as well!!