The song that has been replaying in my life lately has been the old hymn, “Great Is Thy Faithfulness”. I have found myself singing that song day in and day out; even finding myself praising God in the midst of humming it. I have always been one to tell others that my love affair with God is through music. I always find myself hearing God a little louder when I’m engulfed in gospel music. I’ve recently turned 29, and to be honest, my life is far from where I’ve told God I wanted to be. I found a Facebook status of mine that I wrote when I was about 22. I listed all the accomplishments I knew I would achieve, and by the age they would be achieved by. For instance; I would have my Masters by 26, married by 28, and be a mother by 30. Needless to say, none of these goals have been obtained. From time to time, I have found myself somewhat disappointed that my requests and desires have fallen on deaf ears to God. On my 29th birthday, I made sure I was surrounded by friends to avoid the disappointment of not being where I wanted to be.
In the beginning of the year, after an end of a relationship, I decided to seek God and fast for 40 days. I prayed day in and day out, and even created a vision board so God knew how much I really wanted to advance in my life. With six months remaining in the year, I honestly can’t say whether or not any movement has been made in my life. Hebrews 11:1 says, “faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.”, and I definitely struggle with trusting and believing those things unseen, from time to time. Something so amazing about God is, is that He’s never changing. He is exactly the same God that allowed Jonah to be swallowed by the whale, and the same God that allowed Him to be released. God is the same God that allowed Satan to take everything from Job, but also covered him in not allowing Satan to kill him. God is also the same amazing God that knows my desires as well as yours, and even in the silence He’s faithful to us even when we’re not faithful to Him.
Life is funny. Life doesn’t always go as planned, mistakes and bumps in the road do occur, and failures and disappointments do arise; but:
“Great is thy Faithfulness,
Great is thy Faithfulness,
Morning by morning new mercies I see;
All I have needed Thy hands have provided,
Great is Thy Faithfulness,
Lord unto me”.
You want to know what’s even more amazing about God and His Faithfulness?
No matter what we do, we’re never deserving of just what God does for us and how faithful He is to us, even when we struggle to be faithful to the process of life; and especially to God.