I read Isaiah 6:8 the other day:
Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, “Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?”
And I said, “Here am I. Send me!”
In this chapter, Isaiah sees a glimpse of heaven and the LORD Almighty, himself. He immediately realizes his faults; his unworthiness to be in the presence of something so holy. But God makes a way, takes away his guilt, and forgives his sins.
So in the next verse when God asks for someone to be a messenger to his people, Isaiah steps up. “Here am I. Send me.”
This has always been my reaction as well. I remember hearing this story as a teenager and in my childlike heart begging God to be called into His story. I still want to be used by God in big ways. I frequently tell God that I am willing to GO wherever he leads.
My sweet Jesus has made the ultimate sacrifice for me. ME. I deserve none of what he’s offered. I am flawed to the core. God is offering me freedom from slavery and a hope for a better future. But not only later, he’s offering me purpose and a reason to wake up and get out of bed each morning. I will go wherever my God leads me.
I long to be called out upon the waters into the great unknown!
But as often as I pray Isaiah’s prayer, longing to be sent, God’s response seems to be “stay.”
Years ago, my husband and I started dreaming about what it would look like to be in ministry together in a completely different environment. We currently attend a large church that is flourishing. My husband has the great honor of being one of many pastors on staff. The culture of our Church has encouraged us to love like Jesus showed us, to serve as we are called to do, and to be unified as One just like God, the Father; Jesus, the Son; and the Holy Spirit are One. For a very short period of time we dreamed about what it would be like to travel far away and bring that biblical kind of oneness and love to a new church community.
For a few weeks there I imagined having to leave all the comforts of my home and community and go where I had no choice but to fully trust God to supply all of our needs physically, emotionally, and spiritually. I was all in.
God made it very clear, however, that the place where my trust needs to be “without borders” is here, now. God is calling us to be faithful and to trust him right where we are with what we’ve already been given.
In the comfort of my home environment, I too often put my trust in my own abilities. I either think, “I got it!” or refuse to do something because I know I couldn’t handle it on my own. Forgetting completely that I don’t have to lean on my own understanding.
God is calling me now to quit leaning on my own understanding and trust him now. To move forward in boldness where he’s already placed me. It’s time to trust him to help me as I go into the waters of my own neighborhood, my own church congregation, and be his light wherever I am.
Could this be his response to your prayers as well?