I have decided to take a social media sabbatical.
Mostly from Facebook and twitter.I have to share this post somewhere, right?
For how long? I am not sure yet, but it has been the best thing I’ve done! These specific outlets were no longer serving a purpose for me. I use to believe they did a great deed in connecting me to old friends or family that I have not seen in years when in retrospect it inadvertently became insulting to the meaning “connection”. I was taken hostage and brainwashed into thinking “I need this in order to communicate. In order to connect to the outside world.” When in reality, I am talking to a screen. There is no eye contact or emotion. NO true connection. It was all just random faces, still framed glimpses into the life’s of those I followed or who followed me. Every like became digital pats on the back for accomplishments that were too ambiguous; holding no true meaning. The “laugh out loud” acronym became the muted laughs no one sees or hears to really experience authenticity. Invites made you believe people cared to have you in there group. Memes started to pollute the home page as if it were a filter for spam. People appeared more confident behind a screen and displayed certain characteristics unlike in actuality . Kind advice became intrusive to those who felt opened enough to post regarding life but too private to talk about it. I was beginning to become reclusive. That was until God stepped in and activated inner realms of consciousness. I realized I was in a comatose state of mind each time I scrolled up or down. I was losing grip of my own reality. Unless I found the kill switch I was being drained. I was forgetting what true intimacy was. Friends and family would RSVP but never show. A pattern of fallacies created a resentment that wrecked havoc to the girl who wanted association, but instead believed the lie that she needed that connection to be “connected”. Losing touch because of being too in-touch, it was time to pull the plug. Once I realized where all my attention laid I no longer struggled with the thumb scrolling addiction and began to regain consciousness.
You have heard “consider the source”, well, I have been led to consider the soil.
“A farmer went out to sow his seed. 4 As he was scattering the seed, some fell along the path, and the birds came and ate it up. 5 Some fell on rocky places, where it did not have much soil. It sprang up quickly, because the soil was shallow. 6 But when the sun came up, the plants were scorched, and they withered because they had no root. 7 Other seed fell among thorns, which grew up and choked the plants. 8 Still other seed fell on good soil, where it produced a crop—a hundred, sixty or thirty times what was sown. 9 Whoever has ears, let them hear.” – Matthew 13
Jesus told a parable about the sower and the seed. When his disciples asked why he spoke in parables as such, he replied “Because the knowledge of the secrets of the kingdom of heaven has been given to you, but not to them.”
“Though seeing, they do not see;
though hearing, they do not hear or understand.
14 In them is fulfilled the prophecy of Isaiah:
“‘You will be ever hearing but never understanding;
you will be ever seeing but never perceiving.
15 For this people’s heart has become calloused;
they hardly hear with their ears,
and they have closed their eyes.
Otherwise they might see with their eyes,
hear with their ears,
understand with their hearts
and turn, and I would heal them.’
I understood that what God was taking me away from, was leading me to a dark place. I could no longer hear His voice; even among the silent chatter of letters filling the screen.
19″ When anyone hears the message about the kingdom and does not understand it, the evil one comes and snatches away what was sown in their heart. This is the seed sown along the path. 20 The seed falling on rocky ground refers to someone who hears the word and at once receives it with joy. 21 But since they have no root, they last only a short time. When trouble or persecution comes because of the word, they quickly fall away. 22 The seed falling among the thorns refers to someone who hears the word, but the worries of this life and the deceitfulness of wealth choke the word, making it unfruitful. 23 But the seed falling on good soil refers to someone who hears the word and understands it. This is the one who produces a crop, yielding a hundred, sixty or thirty times what was sown.”
My soil was becoming contaminated and if I could not get it back to a natural state it will become manufactured somehow. Losing all nutrients that was once given to bear fruit. A stoned foundation layered in pesticides deemed it impossible to sow. My seeds began to fall among the thorns as Jesus explains and it doesn’t matter if you have christian followers, follow those who claim to be in Christ or associate in church gatherings. Through these chain reactions in no way shape or form will truly lead you closer to intimacy with God. The idea that social media was aiding in my walk with Christ was very deceitful. By falsely believing as long as there were mentions of God, textual concepts of Him, and people who claimed to be Christ followers, I could produce fruit. Not realizing that technology became my God. All knowing, all seeing, and relentless. I began to lose touch with the one TRUE entity that mattered by staying connected via this circuit. Thinking it would keep me afloat because there were other’s who could help until I was short circuited. I forgot that true intimacy with Christ did not mean following pastors on Facebook or Twitter and Instagram, that quotes did not disciple or reading an article about fulfillment in Christ made me a better Christ follower.
“The kingdom of heaven is like a man who sowed good seed in his field. 25 But while everyone was sleeping, his enemy came and sowed weeds among the wheat, and went away. 26 When the wheat sprouted and formed heads, then the weeds also appeared.
27 “The owner’s servants came to him and said, ‘Sir, didn’t you sow good seed in your field? Where then did the weeds come from?’
28 “‘An enemy did this,’ he replied.
“The servants asked him, ‘Do you want us to go and pull them up?’
29 “‘No,’ he answered, ‘because while you are pulling the weeds, you may uproot the wheat with them. 30 Let both grow together until the harvest. At that time I will tell the harvesters: First collect the weeds and tie them in bundles to be burned; then gather the wheat and bring it into my barn.’”
The good wheat that was once sowed in my own soil started to grow weeds as the enemy distracted me.
Weeds started growing because I started mixing other soil on top of my own.
I am sorry for putting these things before you, not realizing you were not in them. I thank you for my new understanding.You were there tapping on my shoulder lovingly trying to get me to shut it off in order to pay attention. You were trying to warn me of the distraction the enemy was setting in place while he scattered weeds within my soil . Forgive me and help those who are also being misled and distracted. Who are also forgetting the difference in what it’s like to have you verses being truly known in you.
You think it is freeing to have full access to someone and believe that that is all of them. We need to consider the basis of true intimacy of a relationship and head back to the basics. As well as consider the soil and if our root is strong enough to bear fruit.