I am not worthy. I’ll never be enough. I can’t serve God because of my past. I am too fat. God will never be able to use me.
These were just a few of the words my eyes drifted to as I peeled the index cards off the wooden cross at the prayer station at our retreat. It was at this station where just a short time earlier women had faced lies from the enemy head on, crushing them with the truth of the cross.
The instructions at the station were simple:
Write down the lies that you have been told and believed in for far too long. Take a push pin, and pin your index card to the cross. Do not write your name on it. Take some time to pray over the lies you’ve believed. Leave the lies behind and go forward knowing the truth of The One who created you.
“The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly.”
John 10: 10 (ESV)
What amazed me the most as I read through the lies wasn’t that women had written these things, but that many of the cards had the same lies written on them. There seemed to be a central theme and a central tactic the enemy was using.
To make women feel like they aren’t capable of doing God’s work.
He’ll whisper lies like: You’re not good enough. You’re not capable enough. God can’t use you because of this or that.
And we believe it. We take it at face value because so often we think it’s coming from the voice inside of us. Maybe you’ve heard some of these very lies whispered to your own heart. Or maybe he uses different things against you. There are plenty of other lies he uses. We could go on and on. It’s a downward slope full of his trickery and deceit.
There is nothing Satan wants more than to get inside the heart of a woman chasing hard after Jesus.
As women, we are often very good at identifying our faults and limitations. Satan will use these acknowledgements as opportunities to turn lies into what we think are truths.
It can be hard to recognize those whispers at first. We believe they are coming from our own thoughts and feelings. Then we start to believe that others must think the same things about us. And if others think we’re not good enough or capable enough, then we begin to believe that God must feel the same way too. That’s exactly how Satan gets you where he wants you. If he can isolate you from others, then he can eventually isolate you from God.
If he can convince you that you’re all alone then eventually you’ll believe it. And if you can believe that, then maybe, just maybe, he can convince you that God doesn’t care about you or that God can’t use you. Friends, I wish I could see you in person as I say this. I wish I could grab you and hug you and squeeze every lie that you’ve ever believed out of you as I would tell you these very hard, but very true words.
Satan is an ugly, nasty liar. He is vile. He is corrupt. He will do anything in his power to stop you from running hard after Jesus. You see, he knows a lot of things, but he is not all-knowing. There is only one who is and that is our Lord and Savior.
I think Satan attacks women in many areas (motherhood, marriage, calling, etc.) because he knows we are a legitimate threat to him. Oh yes, he knows it. He’s seen it play out before.
Deborah and Jael (Judges 4). Rahab (Joshua 2-3). Ruth. The woman at the well (John 4).
He knows that a woman running hard after her God, her Jesus, is no match for him. You see, we have the privilege of knowing the end of the story. We know that the serpent’s head is crushed and that Jesus brings victory through what He did for us on the cross. So we must start living in that truth. We must start living as Daughters of the Most High King. We must start crushing the serpent’s head, his lies, with the word of God and placing our identity in Christ. We must not abandon one another. This is important to know too.
Each of those cards at our prayer retreat were hand written by different women. But they all carried a central message. That tells me that I need to lift up my sisters in Christ and help them see the truth about themselves. So if you find yourself here today and you realize you’ve been believing the enemy’s lies for way too long, let me encourage you.
God has a plan for you. He will call you to something magnificent and great if you continually seek Him. God can use you. Oh yes, God can use you. I don’t care what you’ve done, where you’ve been or where you’re going. He can and will use you. He does it all the time. Take a look through the bible and you’ll see that God uses His people from all walks of life and from all different pasts to accomplish the task He wants accomplished.
Arm yourself with The Truth (God’s word) my sweet friend. It is the only way you and I can combat the enemy’s lies. So let’s suit up and fight, shall we? Let’s shatter the lies of the enemy and vow to help our fellow sisters proclaim victory through Jesus!