Have you ever had one of those days where everything seems to be in disrepair? That’s my day. I woke up late because the alarm did not go off and when I went to turn off my ceiling fan light with the handy little remote I couldn’t because the battery was dead. After I get my older children off on the bus for school (did I mention this was a Monday? You all know how those mornings go) I realize I have one diaper left for the day so I start heading to the store and my key fob breaks off my keys and slides under the van, which when you are 8 months pregnant is laughable at best. I get home without being stranded, which was a feat in of itself because some cables broke loose from our alternator and I was playing Russian roulette with our battery, and start making our butter for the week and my food processor dies the most dramatic death… all before noon. Now I know what you’re thinking, these are non-issues in the grand scheme of life but also things that might send us into a tiny breakdown. Would you laugh if I told you I had prayed for more patience the night before?
We can sing Thy Will Be Done and can pray it until the cows come home but in all actuality we only really want His will if it happens to line up with our wants. Right? God is not in the wish making business and aren’t we glad? Can you imagine the things you’ve prayed for in the past that you are so thankful now you didn’t receive? Three words, middle school boyfriend. There are times, however, when you pray for things and even though it seems like a good decision for your life and what you think might be God’s path for you, He has other plans. You hear people say “Be careful what you pray for” because sometimes He gives exactly what we want in order to show us it is not at all what He intends for our lives.
A few years back my husband and I prayed for financial security in order for me to be able to solely concentrate on our children. Like I really prayed for this, squeaky wheel gets the grease right? He lost his job. I remember those first few days as feeling as if I couldn’t breathe. This was NOT what we had prayed for, in fact it was the exact opposite… or so we thought. He landed a job that allowed us a little more wiggle room financially and I had to quit my job because of his schedule. HERE was the answer to our prayers. However, now he was never home. The toll it took on our family was tough. We were fine financially but he wasn’t a part of the family anymore, just a stranger passing through and sleeping here on occasion. We prayed for more family time and the economy took a little nose dive and he lost that job. See what we thought we needed was more money but God showed us exactly what our hearts actually desired. He took a position that paid much less but we could not be happier.
“Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me; yet not my will, but yours be done.” (Luke 22:42)
God wants to hear our desires through our prayers. He wants us to share our goals just as we want to hear the goals and desires of our children. We just have to be prepared in knowing that our goals and desires can sometimes be those of selfish intent, or maybe not at all, but just not the path He has already paved for us. You see, we already have a purpose. We might have zero clues as to what that purpose is, but it’s there and at the exact right time it will be revealed. Let us be patient and know that His will in our lives is to further the kingdom of God, not our lives on earth. He knows what our hearts truly desire but he might reveal that in hard ways.
Also, if you pray for patience, be prepared for a gnarly morning.