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I need a moment to be honest. We are friends, right? Good! I am glad you agree. It took me weeks to sit down and actually write this. I kept reading Genesis 7-9 over, and over again. I would stop and I didn’t understand what God wanted me to say. It was in all honesty, what else can I say about the great flood, that hasn’t been said before? I guess I will just get in line with everyone else and just say the same thing, over again.

Tonight I stood in my bathroom before taking a shower, I turned on my worship music and just stopped. Stopped to praise Him. Stopped to ask Him to lead me where He wanted this message to go. Sweet daughters, He didn’t disappoint. I am sitting here in awe, heart trembling, shaky breath, because there is so much I want to say. This message is all God. All Him.

(read Genesis 7)

Can we talk about, that following God, sometimes you feel forgotten about, you wonder if He actually hears you, or sees you. Sometimes you feel lost in the shuffle. You wonder why He brought you here to only leave you here. Don’t you ever wonder what Noah felt? Or the others on the ark? Even the animals. You have to wonder about them.

Genesis 7:12, “and rain fell upon the earth forty days and forty nights.” ESV

Can you sit here and imagine that? I think of Louisiana and what they just faced and that doesn’t even paint the picture of what is happening in the Bible.

Genesis 7:16,” and those that entered, male and female of all flesh, went in as God had commanded him. And the LORD shut him in.”

This is where I am going, following God, sometimes you feel forgotten about. You have followed exactly what God has called you to. He called you here. He shuts you in. Then you wait. You keep waiting. You keep doing what you were called to do. You begin to over think things. When is it my time? You almost feel like you are banging on the wall to be listened to. But you wait.

Genesis 7:18-19 ,”The waters prevailed and increased greatly on the earth, and the ark floated on the face of the waters. And the waters prevailed so mightily on the earth that all the high mountains under the whole heaven were covered.”

Genesis 7:24,” And the waters prevailed on the earth 150 days.”

As a girl from Iowa, I know what all the dark clouds can do to someone and the feelings it can provoke. In the winter, so much snow, it is gloomy. It can really mess with your emotions and make you depressed. They have a name for it; Seasonal Affective Disorder or in shorting it, SAD. It’s a real thing, it doesn’t have to be just snow, it can be rain, or just lots of clouds. It can affect you because you are missing out on the sun and what the rays do to you. I don’t know about you, but when I am sick and I stay in the house for too long, I almost feel worse because I am not going outside. I am not feeling the sun on my skin. Heck, as a stay at home mom, it can because my husband travels and I am home all day with the kids. It’s not good for you to go with sun.

Can you imagine what not only the humans were feeling but the animals on board? As an owner of fur-babies, 3 dogs, my mind and heart thinks of those animals. This ark had every kind of animal on it. The cries they probably heart because the animals wanted to be out on the green land.

(read Genesis 8)

Genesis 8:1 ,”But God remembered Noah and all the beasts and all the livestock that were with him in the ark. And God made a wind blow over the earth, and the waters subsided.”

I am an impatient person, I have been this way since I was a girl. That is a long story that I will talk about another time. Thinking of the ark, I can imagine the family ready to get out, losing track of time. I mean come on, they didn’t have tv, they didn’t have a phone to play a game on, the list goes on and on, and I swear I am not addicted to my electronics. Just had to stay with the times.

Genesis 8:6 ,”At the end of forty days Noah opened the window of the ark that he had made and sent forth a raven. It went to and fro until the waters were dried up from the earth.”

He did this 3 times. On the third time, there was a glimpse of hope. He did it one more time and the dove did not return to him.

Can you imagine that feeling, it was almost time, so close!

Could it be true?

Could they leave the ark?

Genesis 8:15-16 ,”The God said to Noah,“Go out from the ark, you and your wife, and your sons, and your son’s wives with you.”

There you are God! I know you don’t leave our side and our human nature begins to over think things.

Take a second and think about this. Can you imagine the animals and the people leaving the ark. I bet it was like taking a toddler to a playground and they just go running. So much to see, so much to do, and finally dry land. The smells they must of smelled. I like to imagine them laying down in the grass and just making grass angels. Taking a deep breath and smelling the fresh grass, the flowers.. It makes my heart skip a beat thinking about it. I love the smell of fresh cut grass even if it flairs up my allergies. I still enjoy it.

(Read Genesis 9)

Genesis 9:20-23 ,”Noah began to be a man of the soil, and planted a vineyard. He drank of the wine and became drunk and lay uncovered in his tent. And Ham, the father of Canaan, saw the nakedness of his father and told his two brothers outside. Then Shem and Jepheth took a garment, laid it on both their shoulders, and walked backward and cover the nakedness of their father. Their faces were turned backward, and they did not see their father’s nakedness.”

This is where I also see SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder) taking over.

(http://www.webmd.com/depression/guide/seasonal-affective-disorder). For the record, I am not saying for certain this is what it was, I can’t prove it. It just makes me wonder. They had been on the ark for so long that they forgot about everything God had done, that they kept going back in their old ways. The reason for the flood. The sin. The mockery. The shame.

And so it continues…

 

Mrs Cassandra Gay

Mrs Cassandra Gay

"Sanctify them in the truth; your word is truth " John (17:17).